bedtime stories

very apprropriate movie for kids...it's lovely but then really suitable for kids...and those who think they're kids...haha..

me? watching this movie..the comment: bolehlah...with a fake smile... : )

not really a fan of adam sandler...
but love the performance of courtney cox arquette...
remind me of the lovely sitcom that i always love..whish is 'friends'...

currrently being pretty nice in spending times with my cute nieces...
being the artist and draw whatever sketches of flower, cat, elephant and butterflies that they asked to..

then, keeping them company when they are playing...
it's so good being kids..all we have to do is play..
nothing to worry about...

what i like about u

u....
caring....
u tend to care about whatever things that comes up in my life..
there were times that u ask about my parents...
when, i supposed to start working...sometimes..i kinda feel weird ..
but then, i guess ...hmm..we were friends...

kind
reminding me of being a good person..
fasting...keep reminding and even ask to fast on certain good days....


family person
always busying with going back home...
ur weekend is with your family...

shy...
sometimes tend to look shy..
behave like a shy person...


whatever it is...u might be pretending and show only the good side...
i don't know..we can be pretenders..being somebody that is not exactly who we are..
but i guess, i am being myself..
the 'not feminine' side of me...
the real me..
me who wanting an answer..
me...who really want the truth...
me..who sometimes feel 'bosannye dgn mesej ni!!'
me..who just feel happy to be me...

miss u miss m

days and days ago was my very last session of meet n greet her...

though i guess, it's kinda hard to end it..guess it was what we are supposed to do...since i've already finished my study...hehe..

apa khabar?
baik...

awk tak call pun...
hehe..sorry..sy ingt nanti,sy nak drop-by je...

sy ada good news..my paper dah ok...so, hopefully everything akan ok...
bagus..sy doakn awk punye paper okay...

so, apa perancangan slps ni?
maybe nak spend cuti..hehe
ye la kn..org dah comfirm dapat keje ..(with a grin on her face..)

so, ada pe2 kata2 hikmat utk sy?since lps ni, kte cm tak bjumpe lagi kn...
selalu pertimbangkan baik dan buruk sesuatu keputusan yg dibuat..apa2 pun, yg terjadi, kena kuatkn semangat ...

tu la pasal...nanti, sy dah takde tempat nk mndapatkn khidmat nasihat...hehe
nanti sy takda, siapakah yang akn menolong awk membuat keputusan dlm hidup awk?
diri sendiri...(dgn penuh semangat , menjawab..)
she just smile..with a nod ..

nanti awk rindu2 kat sy...boleh jek nk datang..not as a student la..
sy doakan awk berjaya..nanti dah berjaya jgn lupa sy...
jaga ur relationship...

sy cume nk ucapkn thank u very much atas segala nasihat...
we shake hand..and give a lil hug...
hugs n kisses...

i really miss her....
her soothing face...makes u wanna think that it's safe with her...

it's 'the problem' that make me meet her...
make me wanting to see her...
made her the one that appeared in my mind...
we discussed a lot of things...
the better way of having a good night sleep...
the important of relationship...
the bright shining light behind everything...

org hanya boleh memberi nasihat..hanya awk yg boleh membuat keputusan...

i still remember there were times when the most frequent word that comes out are 'tapi'
lain kali sy nak senaraikn berapa byk 'tapi' yang awk dah cakap...
hehe

10.46 a.m
her room...
wednesday..
17 december08

mr brighhtside

favourite song to sing your heart out....
mr brightside....
by the killers....

doul

menanti by doul

Dekat 19, ni cara kita weh
Lu orang periksa la kalau lu orang nak periksa
Jaga-jaga semua ku baru dalam permainan ini
Menterjemahkan lagu dengan caraku sendiri
Gua ada awek tapi dia nak pergi
Jadi tinggallah gua sorang diri
Gua sayang dia gila weh tapi dia nak chow
Jadi sebelum dia chow, gua cakap Biar gua cerita lu orang lahDengar woi

C/o:(Oh) aku rela.menantimuWalaupun aku tak sanggup
Menanggung rindu, tapi yang pastiAku (aku).setia kepadamu
Tak gusar pada badai yang akan hadir (lagi)

Verse 1:Mari intan payung, gua nak kata serba sedikit
Jangan ah renggang, datang dekat sikit, gua tak gigit
Ruang yang luas antara kita dijadikan sempit
Supaya matamu, bertentang mataku yang selebet
Owh..walaupun perpisahan kan kita alamiToksah sedih, gua tunggu lu kat sini!!
Jangan risau kalau-kalau gua nakal menggatal
Gua tak main gila selagi cinta kita kekal
Owh..cara mu menyayangiku buat gua lambung-lambung
Cara mu memuji manja dah lah memang cun
Buat lutut gua lemah tapi teruska
nGua langsung tak tersinggung
Mana weh lubelajar sayang?
Gua fikir lu buat gua bingung
Matamu menyinarkan masa depan yang cerah
Berat hati gua, namun terpaksa gua menyerahKan mu..tuk kejar impian
Cepat pergi, cepat balik, cepat sikit gua cuba tahan

Verse 2:Nak pergi dah ni?
Tunggu ah sikit lagiGila s**l gua belum puas renung muka lu lagi
Haih macam mane? Nak gua nangis ke apa?
Papehal sekejap lagi gua terpaksa terseksa lah
Walaubagaimanapun, gua nak tinggalkan pesan
Nak dengar, tak nak dengar, sekati lu ah perempuan
Jangan lupa diri, jangan langsung lupa gua
Impian mesti kejar, jangan biar terbiar eh?
Jangan bazir makan weh, perut kene kenyang
Jangan bazir masa dan mak bapak lu punya wang
Maaflah beb, gua takde duit nak kasi
Gua harap cinta dan hati gua memadai
Owh..sampai sini sajalah wahai gadis jelita
Gua tak nangis
Cuma habuk terbang masok mata nih!
Sebelum pergi, ambik gua punya hatiIngat sayang!
Gua cinta lu bagai nak mati!!

Breakdown:Lat tali lat tali tan plong
Kepadamu pemikiran ku terpesong
Susah gila ku nak menahan (cinta.)
Kerinduan yang telah disebabkan

Outro:Oi sayang! Sayang!
Jangan lupa telefon nanti eh?
Gua tak boleh, telefon rumah dah kene potong!!
Ingat pesan eh? Jangan main gila ngan gua weh.
Lu balik nanti, tau ah kang!!!


a song that probably kind of making we remember of what 'cinta monyet' was...
when we have to let go ...
further study...
a ''sempoi'' love song ....
rap love song...hahaha...
i used to love to listen to this songs but
lagu ni dah jarang diperdengarkn kat xfresh dikenali skang sbg Xfm...

but then, when we think back about puppy love...
only 'cinta sejati' a.k.a truee love
will remain....
so, puppy love is a kind of experience and hmm...experience...
hahaha

aku pelangi

currently been listening to 'aku pelangi' by joanna & co....
this is a very soothing song...
makes you wanna smiles..
don't worry be happy gitu...


support malaysian musics...

relax

relax-you may only have a few minutes left
by Loretta LaRoche

A self-help book that really help to overcome stress with humours...
i had a pretty good laugh when i was reading it...
guess that the books really helped to bring out more humours in my life...
have more fun....
appreciate the committee...
mum..dad..family and friends....

hmmm..kte kawan la..

we are frens...
always be frens....

a bit busy nowadays with works...
jgn nak kecik ati...
smiles and more smiles...

messaging and emailing...
do both...

hmmm....
kte kawan la...

tak kisahlah labu...
whatever!!!

have the heart to cook

the best meal is served from the heart...
that is absolutely true...
finally, for almost some day of holidays...
finally have the willing to cook...
maybe the visit(shopping) at giant hypermarket leaves me to think of what i want and just bought it..
then, i cook with pleasure...
black pepper mutton and dory fillet...
eventhough it were not as delicious as any western restaurant..
but i think it's a good start...
there's always a start of a brand new day...
the dory is a little bit 'hard' and overcooked...

i love it..

only you know whether you did well or not.

only you know whether you did well or not.

those words were pretty simple but really struck straight to the heart...

happy but it leaves me to think...

guts

finally have the gut to really email him...
but my email was berterus terang dalam kegelapan
it is a bit of humorous here and there...
don't want to make it look awkward...
feel awkward...

if he pretty gentle...
he will reply..
and maybe gave out the decision...

if he just ignored it...
guess that we should have to move on...

berlaga pipi

meet and greet session.....
she sees the progress of my life...
she really help with the aura of positivity...

finally we shake hands...
hopes that we can meet again someday...
she really leaved quite pretty good memories...

cards

1. the red box card

2. the mph card

guess that the latter one is a more decent one...going to the book store..i find myself really love looking at the stacks of colourful books ...my favourite section is fiction...
currently been reading a self-help book by loretta laRoche ...
the books help to deal with stress and relax with humour...i can laugh out loud reading it and still think of how crazy some decisions are made...

enthalpy

according to columbia encycloepedia....
enthalpy, measure of the heat content of a chemical or physical system; it is a quantity derived from the heat and work relations studied in thermodynamics. As a system changes from one state to another the enthalpy change, ΔH, is equal to the enthalpy of the products minus the enthalpy of the reactants.

dalam bahasa kita ianya adalah perubahan...

currently listen to the cranberries

I am currently listening to the cranberries...over and over again ...

Ode to my family
Dreams
Linger
When You're Gone
make me realized to hold on the love...appreaciate it..
love from mum..dad..families...friends...


Salvation
about salvation...
it a matter of how we see it...I take it as people who do drugs..maybe it's good for them to think about stop doing it..

Free to decide
Just my imagination
analyse
animal instinct

when i was way a lot younger, i used to think that cranberries is not delivering good messages through their songs...well, i guess as we grown up, we can think and intepret and still appreciate what is good and bad...

mr bond

bond in my car...

broken into pieces...

my almost two years old clock has broken into pieces..
bought it from IKEa store...
sad..but i think it's about time to change it to a new one...

this book

a very appropriate book for my sis...apart from her textbook ....haha

thanks to miss m

when i think of expressing something about someone...i remembered my younger sister...she was expressing about 'gadis bernama r'...
well, right now i wanna say something nice about miss m....

we can feel at ease we finally have the chance to express ourselves..
miss m was willing to be the listener...she listened...with an empathy face...
the irrationality that being spoke .....
the idiocracy....
the stupidity....
she just listened...
listening without judging...
a lot of us are tend to listen and have that face frown..and judge...
by all means... you are judging the person..

she said:
people around you...your mummy, daddy, family and friends...
they can only give you the advices and guide you...
you...
only you can do the thinking...
you decide what is best for you...
and whatever the consequences are...faced it...
faced it with strength....

thanks to miss maznah....

commitment

Rumors has it

heard that he was afraid of commitment...
heard that he cannot stayed focus at two things at a time...
heard that he is kind....
heard that he is good ....

maybe he was afraid
maybe he does not have the gut...
maybe he does not feel the same way...
damn right....

hepi

i still remembered my beloved aunt used to said "ti, we only live once...so, be happy...."
i guess she really have been through a lot at that age (of course)....and her advice is really a nice and a good one to be kept in mind...why worry?right?
the whole positive things is within you and you just need to shine the positive side of it....

people around you are trying to help you ....facing the real world....
trying to help you deal with life....
trying to help you to be happy and put that frown away...

i guess if we are trying to put a smile on the face of him...
maybe we should try one of these:

1. take him to a nice vacation..(beach, waterpark, waterfall)...let him choose where he wanted to be and with whom...

2. take him to a nice dinner or lunch with his best friend...only he and his friend...only you (yes, you ,the one that want to help, might try helping by planning it and maybe what's better is sponsored the whole dinner..)

3. he just want to speak out and want to be listen to...so, take him to whoever that he wished (whoever that he trusted and wanted to speak his heart out)...then, let him talk all night long with his friend...

4. ask him..what does he wanted to do at this moment?
does he want to just be asleep?
he might want have a karaoke session all by himself....


you might try one of those or if he still seems to not being happy, try all of it....
if all fails, do not blame yourselves...at least you have been trying...
maybe he need some other approach that he, himself do not know how to lighten up his life...
whatever it is, he someday, might be thankful to you for your effort....even if it's not really helped him ...

helplessly me and the brave thieves

4 thieves broke into my house previously..(29072008)
of course when it happen i have mixed feeling of afraid and anger..
afraid ?of course when i think that i'm so damn helplessly unable to seek help..it's just me and my dad in the house...i already woke up at about430 a.m...because i have to get ready to my class at UM...I heard some struggling noise from my dad's room..then, at that moment, i lock my bedroom door..but, somehow they managed to get into my room wthout i have the opportunity to dial up my handphone to seek help..(hahah)
but then, that is the first thing the thief get from me..my motorola L6 handphone which is about one year and a half old...hahaha..
i just gave it to them the handphone..
'who are u trying to call?"
(then, i just hand my handphone to him..)-amek la!!hp aku ni..
then as usual they r asking for Money and jewellery..i ask them to 'seek for youself!!!'u think that i have money?bullshit..i'm so damn broke right now..my allowance already finished..
but then, i tell them to 'buka sendiri' my necklace and my 'gelang'..it is because i don't know how to 'buka ' the things...
the truth is, my sister was "pasang and buka' the things..i don't have any damn idea about it..

then, the thief took up my motorola L6 hp charger wire and use it to tie my hand...
they ask again where are the money?i tell them..
'take la ...the guitar'..
(while pointing at my sis's guitar..then, they ask me about a nokia hp in the cupboard...'rosak ke tidak ni?'
'hmm, dah rosak dah..tapi nak amek, amek lah!!'(gua tak kisah brader..that's my sister's hp...)
then, he put it back..
then, i ask them to let me wear my spectacle..'i can't see anything without it..i might fall...'
the thief open up my spectacles and help me wear it...
he took me to my dad's room where i can see that my dad was already being tied and ask to lie down at his bed...then, i joined my dad..hahaha..

the room was already bright..with the light on..
almost half an hour we just saw the thieves searching for what they want..they are so damn brave..

there was one thief without even a mask..he just left his face bare.(with a huge garden scissor maybe it is used to cut down the grielled...)........
the other cover up with my dad's offire shirt..another one wear my mum's indon tudung..another guy wear a fishing hat...(with my mum's blue slipper stuck at the back of his trouser..with a parang)..

fishing hat? ( u think u're going for a fishing trip??huh??)

at about 05.03 a.m , they ask me to wait till up to ten minutes...
'long, lagi sploh minit buka ikatan ayah..'-the chief thief told me...(maybe he think that i'm the eldest..as referring to kak long..)
all of them start to take everything they they find inside my mum's holiday bag..(my mum used this bag to go to chine couple of years ago with me..huahaha..)

05.10 a.m ...i held up from the bed..(they tied only my hand..that was why i can find anything to open up my dad's knot...(they tied both my dad's hand and leg..maybe because my dad tend to 'melawan')..

that was it..the helplessly me and the brave thieves...
almost one month after that i have some difficulty to stay asleep at night...
i even have glimpses of the memory with me trying to get help and some other effort to call up just anybody...

we go to the police office to lodge report..
then, at 4.30 p.m , the police came to my house to seek evidence,maybe?..

i'm so disappointed with the police..there were so many broke-in cases nowadays..they were quite unable to solve the cases...
they doesn't deserve my respect....

police should have their own forensics team..
searching for evidence and trying so damn hard to save the citizen...
hopelessly.....
uwek!!!

why i decide so..

(setapak jaya apartment...)

travelling from kl-seremban really tiring during the first week..
feeling so sleepy..then, i even accidentally slept during my lectures..haha
but then, i guess there is much more stronger reason for me to stayed in seremban..
1) MOney!!
When u really depend on your parents for allowance ..it's kinda hard to stayat setapak jaya..i have to packed my things(which i hate most)...then, i have to take dinner at the nearby stall..(which is so bored)..then, i have to budgetted how much money i have to spend on dinner for today.. it's not that my parents doen't gave enough allowance..the idea to ask for more doesn't seem like me!!

2) the packing and packing and packing..
staying at residential college or satapak jaya really need packing stuffand then kemas2 all the stuff...at the end of this semester, i had to repacking and move out..
so , thinking of packing itself makes me tired and huh.. tired..
i guess i just have to stay here and avoid doing all the packing...
3) hahaha..(being a nice fella).. i want to stay with my parents..
maybe staying with parents doesn't seem like a bad idea..
imagine not ever have to think of what to cook..just eat as you pleased..
i can watch my favourite programme anytime i want..
the internet 24-7...anytime that i want..
maybe there might some limitation on studying because i might so busy doing household chores..but then, i have to managed my own time,right..(small matter)
4) washing clothes..
no stress on washing clothes..worry less...hahaha

so, right now...
i'm a bit used to wake up early in the morning and go to the class...
besides, i have to use the extra time to do some revisions ..haha..
so much of determination and passionate to study much harder...alhamdulillah..

sepi..

sebuah karya yang menarik..

a great performance by afdlin ...
adlin gesture show a lot of 'sepi' ..as usual he's really good at humour..
pierre also show an improvement on his acting..he was showing that he really care and love his gf..
i really miss nasha's performance in film..
so, her appearance really great..
suzy shows an unconditional love toward adam..


Imaan...
it show how it was really hard to get over with someone we really care...
it's so hard to start over new and give someone else a chance..

lastly....
the sad ending of sufi's story..

somehow,my typical malay friend really annoys me when i say something great about this movie..
i just think that maybe some people think that this movie should only be watched by someone who ever feel lonely..
but i guess ...we just have to free our mind and just enjoy the beauty of the film...
malay films nowaday lack of this kind of movies..
the kind of movies that really touch the heart..
and the kind of movie wth really great performance of the actors..

what aday!!

i haven't have the gut to see my lecturer..
actually i was a bit upset when he gave B on my practical teaching..But, whatever it is..
i went to see him
he then, explained about the result..
well, the explanation somehow make me realize that he deserve and have the right to gave whatever that he pleased..
well then, i just happy with the result..sometimes, we have to see at the bright side..
maybe, if he gave me an A, i will be 'lupa diri'..
then, forgotten to study hard..

what really makes me happy is that, the way he was willing to give advices..
advices for me to go for it!!
study even more harder..
because he said that he believe that i can..
and he also believe that i think i can!! (sambil genggam tangan dan menunjukkn gaya caiyuk!!)
thanks so much for the advices..

i guess the advices makes me think that i am able to do it..
excel!!
and i think the way he thinks that every student has their own ability...
which make everyone is special...
he deserve to be the head of psychology department..